| The dreaded live Journal... |
[Jan. 19th, 2006|09:30 pm] |
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| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | STILL need some | ] |
Oh God! 13 weeks?!! How could I? Oh well, life yet again goeas and goeas and goes theus is the life of the enrgizer man... Not quite but close, for starters i quit my job ( Bad move), Moved back hame ( Even worse move...), am now living at my sisters place ( also not so hot), starting work at Rayans soon ( wich i'm begining to dread...). So in other words life broke of the hinge, hook chain whateva... so I continue to try to put the peices together. Why all the change you ask? I was bored, and new is my pet pal of doom!!!!!!!!! Blarg! I just needed to say that . Well My best bud is finally getting out of the Air Force, this February, I finally get to see his punk ass, he wants to share a pad so I'll have to llok for a place. So Sorry Impy seriously, if I only had the time , I feel like I've been a poor friend for that I deeply apolgize, and hope with little certinety that you forgive me for shutting the door on the world. But now that door is wide open for the everone to see all the goodies within... Mmm Jolly ranchers! So onto the nitty gritty, my oldest sister is having her second child ( I think its a boy), My father is still a nut and thankfully returning to Oklahoma, My mom got custody of my youngest sister ( Who sad to say just lost her cat), My oldest sister also might be getting a divorce, My sister Trisha is yet again having trouble in Columbus, I miss lothlorien..., and last but not least I still don't have a girlfriend. Man I know how to complain, or is it whine? Maybe i should have some cheese for the occaision. Thank you VERY much for the nudge, and
Peace!) |
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| Wow! Time moves fast... |
[Oct. 11th, 2005|02:32 pm] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Made some good techno | ] |
It's October already, it feels like yesterday when I got my apartment ( Late august). Got a bike, ( I think I sadi that though...) Busted my knee on it now I walk with a little more care. I didn't have to go to the hospital but I'm sure it's a life time Problem. Didn't hurt my self too bad, but enough to make me walk different. I still eat like a king fro those who care, budgets still in the shitter, still don't have a girl friend ( Could probably do without one right now), and I still puff the Green dragon. Is that what it is now or just pot? I don't do much but it takes the bite out of a bad day, and fast. I'm reading this awesome Stephen King book "Wolves of the Calla" Dark Tower V. 5 Ohh god! Talk about cool, action packed, blood ,gore, and what not, man that guy can write. Anyway life mills on as usual nothing new or special a few cool nights/ days with my friends and a lot more restless ones. Such is this game we call life....
Peace!
*Hugs* if you want em they're FREE! ( That's so corny, but so am I.) |
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| Doing this often is hard.... |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|12:21 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Need some still.... | ] |
Especially when a lot is going on, well Hmm lets see first thing I plan on goin on the Appalachian Trail with some friends of mine next year. Work is really eating my time but not giving me enough hours, I got a new bike, ( Looks good, white and goes fast, which I love). So life is little different now, things are kind of revolved around this trip. I'm trying to build up some money and muscle, and cross my fingers and hope things don't explode in my face. I got a list of everything I'll need and it comes to about $2,000.00 maybe more, but I'm willing to do it the question is can I? Right now I'm more worried about the money issue because of how work is ( Or isn't) going. Time is an issue too, because I just feel too tired to go out and look for something else. Right now I'm assistant cook ( Even though I consider my self better of the two, maybe just my ego), at a small Deli / Coffee shop I make not nearly enough but I hope things change some. But besides all that stuff I've just been doing my thing, which in most cases is nothing, or making Pie. Which I found I really like, made some apple Pie today Mm good! No cinnamon though, I was making it kind of for me and for a friend, my friend doesn't like cinnamon. Hmm what else kind of flying through everything today, I went to see my friends about two weeks ago and had some fun, I don't see much of anyone anymore *sigh* ahh well such is life...
Peace! |
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| Mm hungry for something sweet... |
[Sep. 6th, 2005|02:12 pm] |
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| |  silly | ] |
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| | Need some... | ] |
no it's not chocolate, candy, kisses, or anything else... Just Peach Cobbler! I just snagged a recipee for pie crust from google and I'm on my own from there, not that i can't pull this off. I have tommorow off so I'm going to make it then i think i'm going to throw some cinnamon in there that would be good little nutmeg maybe might be too much though. I so excited i love this stuff! I finaly have a place of my own, so I can cook to my little hearts desire. I got some bell peppers and Potatoes too, I thnk I'm going to throw a curry together Green is my favorite, I want to put chicken in there but Pork will have to do. i have a T.V. too my mom brought it with the big pakage ( Now my house is just full of crap, like me...), so i hooked up my X Box ( Oh how I love thee you thief of time). Ahh things are dandy as sweet candy ( that sounds so corny), I have some books to read to bad alas the bad news I always bring it on a shining carriage for everyone to look at. I'm oh so lonely, my poor heart wants to scream and bleed every where ( That would suck, internal bleeding hell of a way to go, but not really), but only I can fix that. I missed out on a party that could have been good last night, after waiting an hour and a half I decided she wasn't coming but shit happens so no blame there. As far as sleep goes still having a hard time, i might buy some melatonin or something sleping pills usually don't work. Mm well this is long enough ( Mainly just because I said so, and I need to clean my house, MY house sounds good.) and times a wastin ( Wish I was, wasted that is.).
Peace Yall! |
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| Really wish i could do this more... |
[Sep. 2nd, 2005|03:30 pm] |
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| | bored | ] |
Work just haven't givin me the time. I come home tired most days with just enough time to take a shower and make dinner for my self. Plus when you can't sleep at night that kinda kills things. Looks like the Insomnia decided to creep back into my life, something I hope I had gotten rid of. Besides all of that happy horse shit not a hole lot is going on, i found i girl I' interested in at work and she seems interested too I just have to grow some balls. But tired bored and over worked is about all I am lately.
Peace! |
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| Monday Monday... |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|09:43 am] |
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My sister is coming in from Cincinnati today, I'm a little excited and a little worried. She gets lost pretty easy because her boyfriend is always trying to tell her where to go, also she likes to argue a lot so thats bound to be fun. They're bringing up a "care package" from my mom which usually includes everything in the house that she doesn't want but thinks I might need. Old dishes, books, movies, ect... Any way I have the rest of the day off, i think i'm going to spend it getting a library card, some books and food from a place kinda like salvation army. Didn't sleep too well last night I need new batteries for my ac remote, and the diner I made sucked. But todays going to prove to be an adventure anyway... I hope my sister doesn't get on my nerves too much. |
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| Just moved again... |
[Aug. 21st, 2005|01:59 pm] |
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| | Just thinkin | ] |
I live closer to work, and not with my friend anymore just me. My budgets tight though, gotta pay them bills... Well I sat down and wrote some poetry last ngith, no T.V. or anything else for that matter. I hope to keep it up because it helps me get my thoughts out of this crammed head. I just hope things prove to beeasier over time.
The Fog:
A darkness falls swift over the fog of my mind.
A deep cold rift coursing through me, makes me blind.
All the visions once seen wiped clean of my eyes.
I flee past these walls and all of the lies.
My mind clears as the fog rolls away.
I open my eyes free from darkness, into day.
I am free now no walls left to pass through.
I am free until the fog wrenches my mind anew.
Fruit Forbidden:
Chasing the sounds; as my mind calls out to me.
Looking around; as the past becomes clear to see.
I listen deep; to hear the lies held within.
I caress the thought; to let the answers come in.
My mind; the stagnant beast that won't let me free.
As I search; to the end of time for the perfect me.
But to free the chains; I must find the answers hidden.
I must look forever; just to taste this fruit forbidden.
Tears of Solitude:
My mind is the lock.
And I am the key.
My soul is split apart.
As my spirit mends my heart.
Of the torture of time.
My brain skips a beat.
As I loose the rhyme.
The answers flee me.
As I search the sky.
My battle seems lost as I die.
Floating to the heavens.
I cry a lone tear of solitude.
Making a dark stormy sea.
For more trapped souls to cross.
For now the answer is found.
The are no more wounds to mend.
Because life is the journey not the end. |
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| Work a neverending hell.... |
[Aug. 13th, 2005|03:03 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mmm need some... | ] |
Well my job's on my nerves again, mainly because I want this weekend to come and be over with. Also because all of the managers there are being tight asses either due to their nature or the fct the health inspection is looming above all our heads, but scaring th crap out of everyone about it doesn't change much. I understand about being prepared for such things, but theres a fine line between preparing and pushing. I personally haven't had too much troubl with this, but i sure ass hel would like to be gone when they do get there so I don't have to take mouth fulls of shit if it hits the fan. Have I done anything that would cause this? Nope, but that doesn't change that someone needs blamed, will this happen? Maybe, maybe not but I worry a little some times. Besides the normal work week and all the crap that brings in, I'm ok sort of. Wish I had a few things, wish I didn't have a few others but who doesn't? Right now I think what I want most is time to relax and breathe, and preferably something to help me do it. Now, I'm missing quite a few things that might help with this. A car, music generator ( Man I love those), girlfriend (which would probably complicate things), the oppertunity and facilities to cook real food for myself (Need Indian food, had some last week Mmm Good), and some green wouldn't hurt. Overall I think some time back in the woods and major ammounts of sleep/ Meditation are in order. Also I'd like to iust go out and do something fun but that requires money, planning, and friends wich all seem to be at arms lenght right now. Hm well enogh of my pseudo bitching life ain't that bad, just need some sleep and a little down time whhich I hope all of you have lots of both because when your lacking either they sky goes grey and the horizon seems further away every day. Well, night
hope the bed bugs don't bite or futon bugs whatever...
Peace! |
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| Back in the swing... |
[Aug. 9th, 2005|10:58 am] |
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| | NEED TECHNO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | ] |
Ahh! Live journal the cesspool of lifeless nobodies who think people care about how pointless their lives are, well since I'm one of those no bodies here goes my pointless life. My job is getting better and I'm looking forward to a pay raise soon, I moved into Bloomington and out of the woods, My father is doing a whole lot better and I'm on better speaking terms with him, I had a chance to visit my family in Cincinnati ( Which was very fun, yet still as crazy as ever). Well that's all the important stuff anyway, I try not to drag these on because people can just ask and I'll fill in the blanks, not that many to fill though. Life just kind of goes on and I finnaly got the nerve to update wich has been annoying me for a month now. Half wondering whether or not my friends think I'm dead ( If I have any left) but i'm alive... Mostly. Any way thats a peice of my pointless life enjoy!
Peace! |
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| It's getting better all the time... Better Better Be..tter... |
[Jun. 22nd, 2005|04:31 pm] |
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| | Wish i had some... | ] |
Ahh finally got a damned job! I'm working in the Bakehouse in Bloomington In. I get paid on Friday yay!
I'm doing things like cooking all of the soups and sauces they also have me on the line ( Which gets old fast). But things are finally going smoothly now that I'nm free from the hell that is Cincy. My dad of all people sent me money the other day to help me out. Plus I got to see my sister Trisha and her boyfriend, they hung out and helped me with some groceries. Still living in a tent thouhg (No problems here) I have transportation, food, friends, and a job. Which is better than what I left with no money, no job, no one willing to help, lots of stress, and hospital bills. Since the bad old days... I have been meditating a lot and sleeping better for it, I'm eating better too, hell everythings better. Well, maybe besides my General Manager, but you're supposed to hate them. Any way long time no chat just figured I'd fill everyone in.
Peace! |
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| Wow "been a lonely lonely long long time!"... |
[Jun. 3rd, 2005|09:24 am] |
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| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Birdies | ] |
How to begin how to begin, well a hell of a whole lot has happened. First off my dad was really sick in texas from kidney failure and heroine. My sister brittany who ran away in April was just found last week. My father got better after we all thought he was going to die ( Maybe next time...). All the while I'v e been in Indianna living in the woods. Like I said a lots happened, after months of rotting at home in cincy, i decided on one of my annual trips to Indianna that I would just stay here. I have some friends out here that own a large ammount of camping grounds. So I decided what they I'm a tree huggin hippy anyway ( Sort of) so I took some clothes and other cmping essentials. Of course I'm getting set up for a job in town as we speak. But so far things are moving so much faster and smoother here, so staying in a tent ain't no thing copared to the hell I was in. But all of that's over now, my families a little mad but they'll get over it. Well my sister trish supports me, knowing just how I felt and also know this is the first time i've been truely happy in months. Well really that's it besides a few battles with racoons and getting a fire started the first few nights but all's good now I'm floatin on a sea o' silk.
Peace! |
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| One more thing... |
[May. 8th, 2005|08:18 pm] |
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| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | MORE TECHNO!!! ( God I'm obsessed) | ] |
My dad is coming into town, Oh joy... I'm excited! ( Not) A little nervous though, I haven't seen him since march last year, before then it had been ten years long time not to see dad. He finally kicked the heroin habbit, still hasn't killed the "Shove my religion down your throat habbit". Don't get me wrong he IS visiting and I guess he's a "nice" guy, but I just get nevous when he's around all those years of missed boyhood and man hood... Just a little flustered.
Peace! |
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| Still at my sisters... |
[May. 8th, 2005|07:23 pm] |
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| | hot | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Good Stuff, bump bump bump! | ] |
Actually got to cook something today, went to a grill out with my sister and her mother in law. I had some fun cooking steaks and chicken, had to watch two kids though ( no problem for me). My sister is trying to persuade me to stay all week and watch her kid for $30.00. I can't decide I actually like being home ( Call me wierd) Most of my stuffs there and it's just comfy. But nothing new has happened just some good food.
Peace! |
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| Time for a proper update... |
[May. 8th, 2005|12:27 am] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sweet Techno! | ] |
Things at home have been a little rocky, still having trouble getting work. Trying like hell, but no luck so far... Besides that I've been fighting a lot with my mom and her boyfriend ( I gotta get the hell outa here!) Still no real contact from any of my friends ( No blame there, they actually have lives.). Got a hair cut, it's verry short now military style ( Not because i want to join, blech!). Been playing frizbee golf ( Very fun) and trying to find new ways to pass time besides hunting for jobs, which takes a LOT of time. Haven't had the chance to cook in a while :( Went and saw sin city COOl AS SHIT! And Hitch Hiker's Guide Pretty Funny, but no sin city. Been helping my Grandma move to Batavia. Also still no pc or internet service... Jut the library and my sis's comp. Besides all that nothin, I hope that sums it up. Tried to squeeze it since a lot's happened...
Peace! |
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| Haven't posted in ages... |
[May. 7th, 2005|12:24 pm] |
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| | complacent | ] |
Sorry no working pc :( it really sucks, but I do have other things I do for fun, but they're running short. Live's still rolling on in some cases better and in others not... I'm really trying to keep this short because I have no pc so no sense writing a paragraph only to get back to it a month later. Just saying I'm still alive if that counts...
Peace! |
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| Finally got the pc working again.... |
[Apr. 7th, 2005|02:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The sound of the food I will be cooking later sizzeling... | ] |
Haven't been able to post in a while, I had to have windows reinstalled so it messed up the clock and date which wouldn't allow me to post on LJ. But that's fixed and I'm back. But I guess it's not that bad you didn't miss much, life dragging on as usual. I haven't been able to realy talk to anyone since I graduated last year, lifes been quiet since then. Just cooking, and living thrown a few hours of gameplay, and books and you've got the past three months down. Stuffs been pretty boring but I'm still in there. Sorry nothing interesting's going on right now, I would even like that much. Just cooking some mexican tonight, I was to tired last night so I decided I'd get off my skinny ass and do it.
Peace! |
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| Eating an awesome dinner and listening to this funny song... |
[Mar. 28th, 2005|12:30 am] |
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| | good | ] |
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| | Yet more trance, an addict I know... | ] |
I just made a noodle soup, with beef stock, curry, Turmeric, white pepper, and cayenne papper. Added some mushroom caps and rice noodles, verry tasty. Also listening to this techno mix, mr. mackey (southpark) is in the back round saying, "Ok, whoever has the marajuana, when your finished pass it to the front please, Mmm Kay?!" Then he says, " Ok just take a whiff of the stuff , pass it to the front and we can discuss it." verry funny! Maybe just to me..?
Peace! |
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[Mar. 27th, 2005|11:11 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
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| | Nothing for now, busy thinking of what to eat... | ] |
My friend sent me this today, i thought it was pretty funny, I'm a bit of a nerd though so of course I would...
>
> 1. Ratio of an igloo's circumference to its diameter = Eskimo Pi
> 2. 2000 pounds of Chinese soup = Won ton
> 3. 1 millionth of a mouthwash = 1 microscope
> 4. Time between slipping on a peel and smacking the pavement= 1
bananosecond
> 5. Weight an evangelist carries with God = 1 billigram
> 6. Time it takes to sail 220 yards at 1 nautical mile perhour =
Knotfurlong
> 7. 365.25 days of drinking low calorie beer = 1 Lite year
> 8. 16.5 feet in the Twilight Zone = 1 Rod Serling
> 9. Half a large intestine = 1 semicolon
> 10. 1,000,000 aches = 1 megahurtz
> 11. Basic unit of laryngitis - 1 hoarsepower
> 12. Shortest distance between two jokes - a straight line
> 13. 453.6 graham crackers = 1 pound cake
> 14. 1 million microphones = 1 megaphone
> 15. 1 million bicycles = 1 megacycles
> 16. 365.25 days = 1 unicycle
> 17. 2000 mockingbirds = two kilomockingbirds
> 18. 10 cards = 1 decacard
> 19. 52 cards = 1 deckacard
> 20. 1 kilogram of falling figs = 1 fig Newton
> 21. 1000 grams of wet socks = 1 literhosen
> 22. 1 millionth of a fish = 1 microfiche
> 23. 1 trillion pins = 1 terrapin
> 24. 10 rations = 1 decaration
> 25. 100 rations = 1 C-ration
> 26. 2 monograms = 1 diagram
> 27. 8 nickels = 2 paradigms
> 28. 2.4 statute miles of intravenous surgical tubing at Yale
University Hospital = 1 I.V. League
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| Easter Baking disaster! |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|04:18 pm] |
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| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Yes! Techno... Dj Fabio Leal (chroma nova Brazil) | ] |
Today sucked! I got about 4 hours of sleep for starters, I was expecting my mother and her boyfriend to come over with ingredients for my easter project. They were in kentucky over a friends house getting some stuff I didn't have , like baking pans and cup cake pans. They were supposed to leave at 9 this morning and come home with the stuff, well it didn't turn out that way. I called at nine and 10 ( We were supposed to be at the easter thing at 1) they didn't leave kentucky until 10:30. They didn't show up until 11:30 (without the stuff) so we went to the store and I got what I needed got back about 12. That left me an hour to do the impossible. Which is exactly what it turned out to be.
Here was the plan: I was going to take muffin pans put weighted dividers ( Paper cups, this I didn't have any trouble with) so I could have a space in the centers for cream filling. I was going to dye the cake pink, have a cocoanut vanilla frosting dyed green for the out side, and a heavy cream, powdered sugar, cornstarch, and Mace based filling. i would make the stuff, prep some to make later and we'd be on our way....
heres what happened: I got home from the store 17 dollars poorer and made my cake batter as planned began to fill my pans and insert my dividers, then the whole family started calling and complaining about how we would be late ( It was 12, takes us maybe 10 min's to get there plus we said we'd be about 15 min's late) i get stressed, obviously no one was supporting me, my sisters complained about how we didn't need mini Easter ho hos. I had already bought the stuff, had nearly an hour to do it, fine, except now I was nervous.
The cakes finish cooking, (15 mins left) so I rush to get them onto a plate so i can fill and dress them. I had already made the Glaze which was too heavy and wouldn't dry ( i winged it, something I'm normally good at, but under stress...), the filling looked like it was going okay, but it was still too watery. So i added more cornstarch and heated it i thought this would thicken it, it didn't it THINNED it! So I cooled it in the freezer and proceeded to use my pointless Glaze which turned otu to be just that (tasted fine though). Tryed to free the cakes from there hold, and the cups from the cakes, i screwed up 60% of them (7-8 out of 12). Then 4 of the five left were overstaurated with the still too watery filling thus ruined, so I had 1 left. But thank my luckey stars I had a pan filled with batter ready to go when we got to my grandma's house, so that I could concult her ( A baking genious) on how to fix my mistakes. So I brought My 1 Frankin Muffin with me and the misfit Glaze and filling.
Can things get worse? Hell yes, When we got there, we found that the remaining batter was ruined because someone ( My Mom) Put it in sideways in the trunk (Fickin Brilliant!). So now were down to one muffin, and no fixing the mistake of fixing them in the first place ( A fucking 17 dollar muffin, an ebay goldmine!) Well when shaun carried the muffin on a plate along with other stuff up to the door ( He was the only one with a free hand), he dropped it trying to open the door. So no muffin, no nothing, now I'm pissed expecting everyone to yell at me as soon as i walk in the door because no muffins plus I'm late for nothing. So i grab the plate of misfit monstrosities and run to the kitchen slam them into the garbage and scream "Here's your fucking muffins!"
But that was the end of it, after my family being pissed for a littole while they came and hugged me, told me they didn't need any muffins ( Monstrosities). Then proceeded to give me the job ( Which no one else wanted) to make the cheeze ball, Which i made look like a cute green rannit with crackers for ears cheeze for eyes nose and teeth. It was cute, now i'm the official cheeze ball amker, just what i wanted...
I hate getting oushed onto mediochre tasks when my talents call for so much more, maybe I'm asking too much. Sorry to bother you all, just hada bad day...
Peace! |
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| HAPPY EASTER! Or what ever it is you do today.... |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|07:15 am] |
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| | drained | ] |
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| | Head throbbing | ] |
I feel like CRAP! Imagine a semi plowing through you at full speed, that's what I feel like now! I don't think a thousand late's could save me, I'll just have to shake it. Got a lot to do today, first off get up, take shower, find decent clothes, and plaster on my "I'm happy,... Really!" face. I have to go to my grandmothers and bare the terror that is my family gathering in one place, it's really frightening. Might sell for the next bigest horror flick. Any ways, gots to do that, and make some Pink/ Green Easter Ho HO thingies, i might have picks later (if there's any left, or right doesn't matter). Man I'm tired....
Peace! Yall! |
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